Whatever good there is get, get it & feel good

I love life.

I also love juicy curvy babes with roles and bumps and dimples. I'm proud to be one. and I am thankful to be loved and desired as one (and by one). I also shamelessly love food. Sweet, salty, smoky, fatty, buttery, cheesy, fried, delicious food. To me the word "diet" is a dirty foul word. It makes my blood curdle. People who remove or avoid food because they want to be thinner (often masked by the word "healthier") make me clench my teeth and wince.

But.

Recently I have got into a habit of eating mostly sweet, salty, smoky, fatty, buttery, cheesy, fried delicious food. Recently, I have noticed that I can not move my body the way I want to. I have noticed that I feel swollen and sluggish and uncomfortable in my skin. Recently, I have gained enough weight that every item of clothing I love to wear, does not fit.

And recently, someone I love was diagnosed with Cancer.

And it made me realize that I want to live long. I want to have kids and be able to run around with them. I want to grow old with my partner. I want to feel good. I want my clothes to feel good. and I want to eat and make and love food that will help my body, thrive. I want to redefine to myself my personal motto, a quote from a Ntozake Shange poem: "Whatever good there is get, get it & feel good".

So I went and spoke to the best person I know, who knows a thing or two about my body - my naturopath.

The last time I saw my naturopath was a week before I met my partner. I was there to talk about several things, one of which was my weight, which had risen significantly after many years of stability. I didn't want to loose weight per se, and I certainly had no desire to be thin - but I did want to stop buying new clothes, and I did want to know what was up with my body. She suggested that I try the elimination diet. I went home and tried to figure out how I could do that. I made a meal plan - sort of. and it looked really hard. and time consuming. and bland. and like everything I hate about that foul D word.

and then I fell in love.

And when you fall in love, you need to go on dates. and eat yummy food. and when you are really loved and desired by someone, changing yourself, all of sudden doesn't seem like a priority. especially if it's going to be hard. and bland. and consuming time, that you would much rather spend consuming someone else.

So I didn't.

but here I am, with nothing to wear, a love of food and a fear of death. So I went back. and explained that I needed something a little less hard-core. She suggested I try to cut out all the white things. Refined sugar, four, soy, corn, white rice and dairy. and to try as much gluten free as possible.

for a month she said.

And so this blog is about that.